It's nothing definitive - no rain, no sun, nothing colorful or attractive or majestic, no mountains or seas... Not even anything harsh like glaciers, brutal desert suns or violent waterfalls. Just vaguely oppressive and bland. And that road going off into the tedious distance... Perfect. In my little hypothetical minsdcape I'm probably driving some bland, boring car like a late 90s Lumina or a Dodge Tempo, and my name is Lisa. I'm likely moderately overweight and wearing dingy white Keds in size 9.5.
Hm, that maybe went a little too far, but I think you probably really get me now. I need an attitude adjustment and a healthy dose of Vitamin D. I received some news this morning that probably doesn't put my current job in jeopardy, but it's enough to cause me concern. I'm sure that my job woes are peaches and cream compared to those of most other people. Other than that, I had an excellent Bikram session last night, slept like Jesper on a Sunday afternoon, delighted in The Great Book of Amber and I'm wearing a fuschia cap-sleeved sweater.
I'm also suffering from clingy-itis - it's whiney and complainy and downright immature of me to say it, but I'm tired of seeing my Companion so infrequently. Can't I be a) fiercely proud of his talent, b) appreciate his application, c) fervently wish him highest success and d) miss him at the same time without losing any of the essence of each? When somebody means so much to someone, spending two nights and one day with them per weekend is not exactly the ideal state of affairs, to put as un-whinely as possible. Finding stuff to occupy my time and energy is something I'm pretty good at and boredom never comes easily to me; but if I do have unoccupied time, I sometimes find myself meh-ing.
Lovely friends, I miss you too. I may be a loner at heart, but I do have social tendencies. Things will perk up soon. :)
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