Streamline

I haven't mentioned it before because I try very hard not to talk about my job in this here blog, but I've known for a couple of months that my job is in jeopardy. I think it's appropriate to talk about, since it has nothing to do with sensitive information or my opinions of colleagues. It's a complicated situation and it has nothing to do with me personally; it's a legislative issue. I do have important and powerful people who value my talents fighting personally for me and I trust them. It's just hard to focus when I have no idea if my employed status will extend beyond June 30th. Things are shutting down, my division is breaking apart, people in it are being reassigned. Projects are being wrapped up, others are being scrapped...

I'm eminently employable because of my disgustingly practical and well-executed academic background, but I like it where I am, I like my "people." I live where I do 100% because of this job. Deciding to accept it was a completely impulsive, intuitive snap decision that I've never once regretted. Honestly, I feel completely betrayed. I stepped it up, leapt into a leadership role, accepted 100% more responsibility, agreed to take on the duties of a colleague who resigned, was denied a raise after all of this (no $ in the budget), and soon after, I discover that faceless lawmakers have decided that it means nothing.

Should I regret the proactivity? It got me nowhere. I'm feeling decidedly jaded. Glurb.