My Thing

I woke up with a very strong (uncannily so) feeling that something has been resolved. Unfortunately, I can't exult over it, because I'm not precisely sure what it could be! I decided to take ballroom dancing to a whole new level - D and I talked seriously about it last night, and I really had to examine my motives, my thoughts about what I'd like to get out of it, and how much I'd actually be willing to spend to get there. I do not doubt my capability. I know I have a propensity to be extremely arrogant in my belief that I can accomplish anything I truly apply myself to. All I have to do now is put my plan into action. There is a fantastic Latin pro coach in the area; I'll do Latin with her, as soon as she finishes recuperating from a knee injury. There's also a pair of really talented Latin/Standard coaches too, and I'll take private lessons with them... For $75 per hour. All of this in addition to group classes and any other private lessons I can secure with the many talented people I know (D, Redhead, A, my old coach, Curt & Island, etc.).

I need A Thing, desperately, or my soul is going to shrivel up and die from neglect. My last Thing was grad school, and I finished up in the top three of my class. I worked my ass off in grad school, and I haven't had that gratifying feeling of working my ass off since. I'm nervous because ballroom dancing could become My Thing, which means that other potential Things (such as more grad school) could be overlooked, or not pursued. I need to establish a hierarchy of Things.

As a person, I'm usually very exuberant - always in thought if not constantly in action. I'd much rather channel that exuberance towards becoming what I'm capable of becoming, in whatever arena, than letting it spill out in all directions with nowhere to go. Rather than providing the fuel for the movement that generates more fuel, it leaks away and accomplishes nothing.

Busy, that's what I've been. I've been in training (for a particular data analysis tool) for the past two days, which has been really fun. Dancing, too, often. Tomorrow is a well-deserved vacation day, and I had planned on relaxing all weekend, but it looks like things are going to continue to be busy. Pro coaches are in the area tomorrow night, and I'll take a lesson with them and then see if I can take a private lesson with D afterwards. Saturday is a DDR party @ RH and SR's domain, and then a USA Dance social dance (with lesson, which I don't think I'll take) afterwards. Sunday could be a day for chillaxing. I had thought about either going to the beach or going to visit Natty and Pepper, but N & P are busy with wedding plans; the beach could still be an option! D has a little place out there.