Stay Young, Kid

Blaaah! After samba-ing for a few hours last night after work (presents from RH!), I came home, started nodding off while attempting to read, collapsed in bed at 9:30, and was so deeply asleep that when S called at around 10:15, it took me a good 2 minutes to recognize the ringing sound I was hearing as the phone. I slept uneasily and had strange waking dreams from about 11:30 - 2, and kept thinking I was somewhere else, and that there were people nearby. I'd speak out loud to them. I was mesmerized and distracted by the shadows of leaves through the misty curtains in my bedroom gathering and separating on the walls - I was so confused that I was actually searching for kanji in their shapes!

I'm tired today, but it hasn't been nearly as crazy-busy as yesterday was. I totally earned the market value of my salary yesterday. I don't know how I'll force myself to drive 30 minutes away after work today to warm up with A, and then somehow get through an intense samba technique lesson with Inga - the thought of relaxing with S and Noir afterward will motivate me. If I do get to go over, I will most likely fall asleep, which is totally boring. I hate it sometimes that I'm so busy that all my body is inclined to do in my free time is sleep. Mehhhh! Today is just dragging by.

This whole week is going to be busy, except for Thursday and possibly Saturday. Tomorrow is early practice with A, Latin and Standard - lighter than yesterday and today. Friday is a private lesson with A and pro coaches, followed by a Silver Standard lesson, and who knows what. There's another pro coach coming into the area to teach a group lesson on Sunday, to which I may go, from 1-3 PM. So much dancing. A "officially" told me yesterday that he'd like to compete with me, "for fun." The hell!

I think I a) get too much exercise, b) don't eat enough, c) don't sleep enough, and d) am suffering from "appreciation" withdrawal. I don't have time to appreciate *things* as much, ponder them, roll them around in my brain, taste them with my neurons, probe their intricacies, imagine their potential. There are so many things to appreciate right now that the only time I have is the middle of the night. I want to savor this color. Everything is so colorful.