Yesterday's Emo Woes, Continued

But who am I? I guess I consider myself first and foremost a scholar. In the past, almost all of the people I connected with were my academic peers. Since I'm not in school and happen to be working my ass off at a career that does not particularly challenge my aptitude (it challenges other things, nonetheless), I'm kind of... Lost. Socially, and in terms of having something mentally challenging and competitive in which to immerse myself.

My need for a physical outlet is very much satisfied right now - I might even be overcompensating because the need for mental stimulation is so not being met. And I feel like I should have more of a social need, but I don't really have one right now and it makes me feel guilty. Reclusive. Maybe I just haven't met the right people.